The cyclone that is my thoughts..

 

So I try to always think things through before I say something that may come back to bite me, but now I am thinking maybe I shouldn’t be so concerned with these things as others don’t. Now it may seem like that’s a negative view towards something that deserves more thought; however, I don’t think I care as much anymore what others think. I think I am actually becoming that person I always said I was, the  “ I don’t give a frak” person, as this thought process has become more prevalent in my mind ( whether to restrain my speech or to let want I want to say flow) I often think back to how I have lived most of my life.

“Do unto others as they would do unto you” is a mantra that I have lived by most of my life; although, it is a contradiction to how I am feeling about speaking out. If I am to live by this mantra then shouldn’t I also police my words that come from my mouth as to not say something to someone that may in turn hurt them. Now I have friends that say things with no consequence on how it makes others feel, so is this really a good way to be as a person, the accept me for who I am attitude or is it just a way to keep people from getting to close?

If you have read this far you can probably tell that there is many a conflict swirling in my head, and I must continue to analyze them. You’re more then welcome to come along for the ride as I try to figure these things out but I can’t guarantee you will enjoy the ride.